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Monday, June 25, 2012

Bible reflection - judging

I really can't sleep and it's alr 2 am in the morning. Was praying the rosary when suddenly my Hp sent a reminder on today's bible reading.

"Stop judging, that you may not be judged... Why do you notice the splinter in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the wooden beam in your own eye?"

Many a times we are like hypocrites saying all the negative things we hate n dislike about people but not look at ourselves.

School is somewhere u will meet kid of different abilities ... But we should nv look at them w tinted glasses ... Easy to say but few can really follow... My resolution for the next few weeks is to enjoy n remove whatever glasses I use to have for them n start things on a clean slit.

I do not know If I am having jitters about returning to school ... Excited or scared ... But surely I am going to enjoy this last 30 days in this place. After all this holiday was really spend heavily with them in joy laughter n crazy jokes. I think I am also gonna miss these people when I leave.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Hospital Trip

My day at the hospital - drawing blood n echo ... It was painful process but yet at the same time tiring. I was almost lifeless n not at all ready to put on the smile but non the least I was thankful for my mummy for being there...

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Art workshop day

A day of fun together with my colleagues !! Gosh tiring n long day but all worth it !! Last 1 month of enjoyment w them

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Bible reflection- forgiveness

Today's gospel reading talks about forgiveness too.

"Therefore, if you bring your gift to the altar, and there recall that your brother has anything against you,
leave your gift there at the altar,
go first and be reconciled with your brother, and then come and offer your gift."

My dear friends If ever someone hurts u or harsh things has been said to another person, sometimes we need to reconcile. Not merely for their benefit but for our benefit actually.

Saying sorry is a simple word but it takes a lot from us to say sorry. To put aside our pride n putting it all away to seek forgiveness from the one whom u hav hurt.

Somehow it is very interesting how these few passages recently talks on forgiveness. Everyone of us has our pride (whatever dose of amount it has) . I hold this statement close to heart.

Pride is the downfall of mankind
Humility is the uproar of an empire

Sometimes it is always good to take a step back and choose to forgive.

Outing w Aunty

I went out w my Aunty today... No we nv really went shopping but just went out for a day of hairstyling. She really v nice to talk to. I miss talking to her. We recalled the times when I was still an infant, how fragile I was when she took me into her arms n took care of me till I entered primary school. She also talked about how my parents dote on me so much and that I was v lucky to have these pair of lovely parents .

She waited for me to do my hair while she did hers too. She spent time talking to me and I enjoyed these times w her. I guess I was indeed lucky to have her take care of me , if not I'll be prob tortured by some evil queen.

In the cause of our conversation, she reminded me to be vigilant of who really means well for me and who are not. She also taught me to 饮水思源 (meaning to be grateful to all those who have helped me) indeed this women has wisdom and many of which came w years of experiences and wealth of mistakes along the way too.

After the whole day I took a train back home ... Like sitting in a time machine.. I was brought back to serangoon and back to reality. But I guess this time I see things differently. I know who and what are the most important people to me alr.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Movie review - Grace Card

I just got a new tv in my room and the first show i watch was GRACE CARD

I just finish watching a show - grace card. It was an amazing show on how a father (policemen) who lost his first child to an accident harbors the hurt within him. He Starts to set expectation on the second child and demanding things of him. Soon after the second child grew up into an adolescence n rebelled against the parents and started to steal. The father shot him inquire trying to steal from a store. The father finally comes to his senses - with the help of his friend - of the many years of trying to fight Gods help and healing.

This story has indeed taught me alot of things:
1) As a teacher to a student or a parent to a child: one child is unique from to another. Setting the same expectations would mean to limit the exploration to their fullest potential.

2) As a colleague another: no matter what situation u are always learning.

3) As a child of God: we are always placed in situations for a reason. Be it to be learning what God wills for us or being His instrument for others. I also learnt FORGIVENESS. How sometimes it would take days ,months or even years to forgive someone ... But letting it go and letting God do his JoB to heal u is sometimes all u need. Why carry the burden all by yourself ?

4) As a child to my parents : sometimes parents need us more than we expect our insignificance in our lives. Many a times they just need us to say some nice words to them to keep them going on. Respect your parents coz they were the ones that brought u into this world .

5) As a counsellor to client: listening is very important. Even if first session they are unwilling to speak, it's alright , soon enough the silence will be broken. Sometimes people are just too broken to speak of the Hurt they are feeling.

6) As a viewer to the show: a great plot with some missing pieces but with many great values to impart to any viewer. However violences may not be suitable for children below the age of 13 yrs old.
In this show there was a GRACE CARD - the prop mainly used.

On it wrote :
" I pray for you everyday , Ask for forgiveness, Grant you the same , And be ya friend always "

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Bible reflection - Corpus Christi

Today is Corpus Christi and it is so funny how i was do attracted to the smell of the incense as i make my way into the church. Like a certain perfume smell that ya teacher / boyfriend sprays.

Todays homily i found it too very close to heart. Father spoke of how some people Find it difficult to believe in the presence of Christ in the Eucharist. Even the last few encounters with my fellow Christian friends they also spoke of how it is just the symbol and not the real body and blood.

Why do they not believe ? I would always leave the table wondering and also ending w a prayer softly in my heart. The question comes around when there are doubts. Doubts comes about coz we don't see the changes. We think that it is just a wafer or a piece of bread nothing big. It also goes against pure logic, there is nothing tangible for one to believe at all. This also leaves me thinking - if the Eucharist is nothing but a piece of wafer why in the world do people go thru so much trouble to STEAL our CONSECRATED Eucharist ?

In this world , many people can tell us there is a God that exist and all christians and followers of religion can understand that there is a god coz all this can be don with logical reasoning. But We need to add faith into our Christian reasoning. This my friend many people are not able to do coz it doesn't make logical sense to them. They sound stupid and illogical an would not sit well with what they believe.

Jesus said to Thomas when he doubted :"Blessed are those Who do not see but yet believe"

Eucharistic miracle also show how wine changes into blood and bread into fresh. This miracle is Not just by accepted by the church but also Accepted by science. Surprising isnt it? The lanciano miracle 1300 yr ago is still present in roam. It is this same miracle that kept my faith burning each time people places doubt in my faith. In 1971 - hospital lab test done on the flesh and it was found to be the "Heart" tissues and many said that it could be the heart of Christ bleeding for us. And the blood was said to b that of type AB

Scientists have tried to explain but still phenomenon but till today they can't

So than this should change the perspective of how we see the mass. When we Come to mass we are entering the whole idea solemnity n unity of HIM. And when we partake in the Eucharist, we acknowledge his power and his mercy that we say to him...

"Lord I am not worthy that u should enter under my roof but only say the word and my soul shall be healed"

This day i pray for all you out there and even myself that Christ will be in the Center of our Hearts , Center of our Faith and Center of our Lives. That our every word be done Always in his image n likeness and our action Always loving , alway adoring n always imitating him .

Friday, June 08, 2012

Bible reflection - persecution

Today's scripture reminds me of how despite even though I have followed Gods teaching, His way of life, even his purpose, trusting w faith on what is in front of me, learning patience, love and endurance, persecutions,
and sufferings, would also come our way.

In my growth and in all these years with friendships and relationships with others , I have been hurt many a times also struck down in my own faith and religion. Despite all these events , these are also the times where I felt that God was walking closest to me. It is a very big reminder that I am to be strong in my faith.

But am I to do so, it is to start flipping scriptures and doing my daily reflections.

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Day 2 - KL

Woke up early for breakfast ... Could sleep no longer ... So we went early for breakfast.

We went KBOX and Gosh it was a fun time there an then went for movie.

We ended the day w shopping at berjaya time sq ... Bernard and Matt went for amusement ride on the indoor roller coaster while alan and the babes shop their lives away.

We met back an hour later with our achievements. So much of fun just shopping but thanks to Alan for looking out for us, none of us got lost in the process. Great job.

When we met back the two boys were way too giddy - hungry or coz the roller coaster took a lot from them. But this day ended very beautifully as we sat at the lounge listening to music after many rounds of card playing. The boys came to crash our room when we tot we were going to sleep but the company was fun and nonsensical man !!

Day 1 - KL

First day out w my friends
So excited n enjoying everyone's company
It's a great joy to have them in my life. I didnt imagine that this journey really has so much joy n laughter.

We met at plaza sing this morning, i cannot imagine how i actually lug my pack bag into the train. But thank goodness it was not at all packed at 7am in the morning- though no seats for us to sit!

This trip we have:
Mindy : my roommate
Priscilla - fellow IJ girl
Irene - mummy of the trip
Matthew : snowman
Bernard : my little angel
Alan: sick little boy boy !

On the way here we enjoyed our times - just like small children laughing chatting and making jokes out of mundane ordinary things...

Few things I am finding out from this trip - priscilla is also an IJ girl...
Surprising thing was that Bernard was bored and he walked over to my empty seat n we started a random conversations (what's new? We chat about anything n everything under the sun)
I spent my journey here reflecting on what bro Al said and on the readings of today...

"You who dwell in the shelter of the Most High, who abide in the shadow of the Almighty, Say to the LORD, 'My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust'"

I came into this trip to spend time relaxing n being w him... I do hope I can just soak in his love.

The day went on and we went for late lunch

  and SHOPPING !!!

Than eating again at coffee club - I had my milk shake and Alan could not have his drink (alcoholic) so I drank for him - I felt a little high after that ! Cos his drink has alcohol !

We continue to shop around. We went to book tix for movie and k box tomorrow. I had a great chat w pris about

We had our dinner in a ship and than went back to hotel. We stop by 7-11 to buy drinks.
We had our baths but before bathing I was standing at the socket for charging and so I asked :
Me : ey girl u need to the charger?
Mindy : eh no need !
Me : oh ! So what Hp u using ?
Mindy: blueberry
That shows how tired she is !!

After bath, we headed over to Matthew room to watch movie (water horse) . Though it was such a similar story line as free willy .. The company was best. Alan looks so boy boy without his gel on ! So different.

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Bible reflection - wait

It seems that all this while I am constantly being challenged by him on this word - WAIT.

These few days as I read the passages of the bible n pray to him for his sign the word I receive is none other than wait... Gosh he is really putting my patience n faith to the test.

"Build yourselves up in your most holy faith; pray in the Holy Spirit."

I had a wonderful time with brother AL today ... He has always seen me thru all the problems in my life given me directions , comfort n listen to me.
Now I know what to do in my life n with my life and I am sure HE will be there to lead me.

Friday, June 01, 2012

Work stress

I feel like crap today
I am task to design the notice board but I am absolutely clueless about what to do and what I need help in. I'm trying to get my act together n think but my brain juices are low !!

Just as i was renting on about the toughness of work, i decided to do my QT outside my room. These words struck me and it makes absolute sense to me. The gospel was on the fig tree. 

And Jesus answered them, "Have faith in God. Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, `Be taken up and cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. 
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against any one; so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.

The words of these verses just hit me like a bullet thru my brain exploding the cells inside it. I was so tired and so scared of whether i would get the letter which in fact i cannot do anything about. Why not pray and trust God to do things in his own time and do not doubt him in this area!! And as for the forgiveness part, I was getting edgy with my friend and work , i immediately apologize to him.