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Monday, June 28, 2010

Follow me

These word has been so often ringing in my head. It is one word that I find not easy to do - Being his disciples, picking up our crosses & follow me. We will fall, we will stumble. At times we would be angry at ourselves. We would get hurt, we would be sad. But this 2 weeks of "hols", I have been feeling all this at the same time.

Sitting at my desk now listening and blasting the P&W songs we sang at SDYD 2010. Lesson has ended & I am just thinking of updating my almost quiet blog. Christian music has been to much part of my life that if I do not have it, it seems so quiet. There have always been so many ways to praise him & my best way would be to sing or be silent in his presence.

At this point in my life listening to this song would just bring back many memories. Good and bad. People whom I love, lost and left played many roles within this song. It is very meaningful in my life. "Hide me now under your wings." Whenever I have problems, I would always run under his mighty wings & he would never fail to tell me, he loves me back. This is SO unlike others, at times when you shower people with care and concern, they would chuck you aside, ignore you or even say nasty words just to push you away. Non the least these maybe who they are and I would still love them all the same , coz God would have put them in our life for a reason - be it to grow, to learn or even to journey. We just need to be like him.

Mighty to Save / How Great is our God
Recently in life, I have hit many rocks, some big some small, none the least I realise I cannot do certain things without his strength. For he is the "Saviour, he can move the mountains... Jesus, author of our salvation." He writes my life, he directs my path. Whenever I think I am walking this path alone, he would not fail to show me his Love & company in journey. Whenever my tears are falling off my cheek, he will be there nearby to wipe those tears away. I have never in my life been hurt by someone but yet again feeling so much love for that same person. How contradictory am I , it makes absolutely no sense to the analytical & structural people. It is just me perhaps, coz I can never hate or be angry at someone for long. He has a weird sense of humor & when figuring out that the reason for one's action behind the behaviour / action / words could be none other than LOVE, the more I will love and care the other person not to even be angry.

Everlasting God 2009 SDYD theme song
I still Remember how I chose these song & after so long those eyes that would turn to look at me when we hear this song else where during P&W. Those that journeyed with me over the 9 months in planning.

Following him in life there is never one straight road, no one path. We take turns , bends and even at times "mao" curb, but he never fails to show us the right path back to him, but we must always be ready to be OPEN to his call.

Monday, June 07, 2010

"Blessed are those who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

In the past I tot teachers life was easy, nothing much to worry, as I explore more into the career I realize I am called to do more than just teach.

I class today aside all those long long lectures, i would remember one thing very clearly. The lecture was on classroom management. It was on the topic of how teachers should handle their classes esp the lower ability / ADHD students. Lecturer said to have small group teaching with them, at times take them outside the office to sit with them and work with them. hmm but then something crossed my mind. As much as I love to reach out to the youths, as much as i love to relate to the youths, there is definitely a group of people who always notices your every move. I asked my lecturer, " what if there is group of teachers / adults who become green eyed when you reach out to those youths?" Yes, all of us have different standards, one "right" may be another's "he/she is going too far." My lecturer's reply to me was "do what is right" how than do we know. To me I have one conclusion to make. If any teachers were to reach this, know that you cannot please every single person in the world, but you can do what is right in our perception for the Kids, sometimes if it means to go out of the way for them.

In this career, you are bound to be persecuted, by parents, by society by fellow colleagues, thinking you are a threat. But you are not here to please everyone but to serve Christ as he has came to serve us. Hence when i hear that, it struck a cord in my head of what I have read in todays readings. It is never easy when we say I want to be a teacher like christ. To be a teacher it is a tough job, to be a Christ like Teacher, you are in for more. Whatever it is , he promises that our rewards are not on earth but in the heavens which he has so lovingly promised us.

As I pondered about the next 4 days left with my friends in NIE, I wished hope & pray that he will lead and guide all those whom he has chosen as his teachers to be the love & light of Christ to all who are searching for meaning in life.

Sunday, June 06, 2010

While reflecting at night just before I sleep, I read the following passage. I recalled mummy always reading this to me before i sleep when i was a child. It remembered my family at the instant of prayer. Very soon I am going to be back, I cant wait to do so. Miss everything about hougang, but I really wonder, am I needed. I enjoyed the last week back, to be able to have someone study tgt with you, to burn my brain cells but yet someone is there to chat with you. Can't wait for the end of this week. FREEDOM

Psalm 90 (91)
The protection of the Most High
He will shade you with his wings; you will not fear the terror of the night.
He who lives under the protection of the Most High
dwells under the shade of the Almighty.
He will say to the Lord:
“You are my shelter and my strength,
my God, in whom I trust.”
For he will free you from the hunter’s snare,
from the voice of the slanderer.
He will shade you with his wings,
you will hide underneath his wings.
His faithfulness will be your armour and your shield.
You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day;
nor the plague that walks in the shadows,
nor the death that lays waste at noon.
A thousand will fall at your side,
at your right hand ten thousand will fall,
but you it will never come near.
You will look with your eyes
and see the reward of sinners.
For the Lord is your shelter and refuge;
you have made the Most High your dwelling-place.
Evil will not reach you,
harm cannot approach your tent;
for he has set his angels to guard you
and keep you safe in all your ways.
They will carry you in their arms
in case you hurt your foot on a stone.
You walk on the viper and cobra,
you will tread on the lion and the serpent.
Because he clung to me, I shall free him:
I shall lift him up because he knows my name.
He will call upon me and for my part, I will hear him:
I am with him in his time of trouble.
I shall rescue him and lead him to glory.
I shall fill him with length of days
and show him my salvation.
Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit,
as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be,
world without end.
He will shade you with his wings; you will not fear the terror of the night

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Time & Love

“Give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar, and give to God what belongs to God.”

As children of God, we have always been giving to the world what the world wants of us, but do we give to God what belongs to him alone?

Have you ever wondered what is it that God is asking from us? How are we to give him what belongs to him? HE is not asking for Gold, Silver or even Diamond rings / Platinum card, he is just asking for US. Yes, us - you and me. He is not asking us to do great things but asking for our time & our love – do you happen to realize that these 2 things can’t be bought.

Sometimes we get caught up with what the worlds wants of us that we forget what he wants. Flipping open the papers today, I read on the raid of City Harvest Church, and thought came running through my head. Why are some churches more caught up in the money/investments than about their people?

Money in the ancient times are significant of political power. In the modern times it is the same too. In many parts of the world, money means power. When I reflected on the readings for today, the verse came out to me, sometimes we are just caught up in Saving money, Earning money, that we forget what is really important to us. A kid of mine once said to me "cher, aiyo spoil spoil lor, I pay money can buy new one!" My heart sank when i heard this. Not coz of the manner in which it was delivered, but the mentality of which our youths are thinking nowadays. Kids nowadays think that money can buy everything in the world. How did this even happen? What is Society / Media / Parents teaching our kids? Have you ever ask yourself:

1. Is money able to buy you True Happiness? Material things can bring you momentary happiness, it can never bring you true happiness. You may beg to differ now but in time to come you will know what I mean.

2. Is money able to buy Love & attention your Family gave? You can never repay your parents for the amount of time, love & attention they have showered on you. No money can buy those times you have with them. Looking after you when you have a fever when you are young, At old age, taking care of you instead of chucking you in old age home.

3. Is money able to buy you a Girlfriend / Boyfriend? You can force yourself on him/her (giving her money / presents) but if he/she doesn't love you for who you are inside, it will just fade away in no time. People always talk about PASSION! but when the passion fades away, you do not have money, work stress sets in & problems / conflicts comes in, do you still love your GF/BF. If one day you wake up and you are frail & old, are they BF/GF you have willing to love you all the rest of your life?

4. Is money able to buy you the Experience you encountered with God.

In my journey in the last 6 months, I have grown more and more. The love I have for God has deepened. Compared with my Christian friends, I may not know how to quote bible verses, but I do know that he was there to look after me. Many times, in the past 6 month, there were times I felt alone, stress from project and bored, I wish I was as free as to hang out with my dearest friends, but reflecting on his words helps me to know his plans for me each day. Seeing his love for me in nature also helps me grow & experience HIM in a loving way. Each Day when I awake to make my way to school, I no longer grumble at him for the weather he is giving me. Instead it is His way of telling me he loves me, he will journey with me till the end of my day - sundown. When the sun was hot, was when days I need to be showered with his warmth. The day when I am tired and Clouds are all I need, he covers the sun for me to walk on.

I’m His Little Princess, I know I am loved, I use to care a lot about being alone, now, no more. I enjoy mass with him alone, just being in his presence. Sitting in the garden of Gethsemane alone. Now I no longer feel this way. I do not need to wear a tiara to be a princess, to be pampers and to be loved, or even to proclaim to the world.

I used to ask a lot of WHYs when things do not go my way. But I came to realized why do I need to ask why when I can look at the Why not? I came to realize that HE has things plan in his own time & places for things to happen…. Dear friends, do you trust in that? I used to believe a lot in coincidence & Luck, but he has showed me it is not. I am proud to say, I am his little prince, what about you? Do we acknowledge that we belong to God?

Of coz being his Princess doesn’t mean days without sadness. When I choose my path to walk with him, trials come my way like tsunami or even earthquake. Sometimes it is so difficult for you to catch your breath. However, I realize he has always been journeying with me, letting go so that he can do what he has to do is sometimes the best thing.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Our Behind the scenes group pictures!!