Hi There! Welcome to Erica's Blog!!

Welcome to My World

This is somewhere I voice my feelings & thoughts.
Do respect my thoughts & refrain from unnecessary comments.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Gospel, Jn 10:22-30

22 It was the time of the feast of Dedication in Jerusalem. It was winter,

23 and Jesus was in the Temple walking up and down in the Portico of Solomon.

24 The Jews gathered round him and said, 'How much longer are you going to keep us in suspense? If you are the Christ, tell us openly.'

25 Jesus replied: I have told you, but you do not believe. The works I do in my Father's name are my witness;

26 but you do not believe, because you are no sheep of mine.

27 The sheep that belong to me listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me.

28 I give them eternal life; they will never be lost and no one will ever steal them from my hand.

29 The Father, for what he has given me, is greater than anyone, and no one can steal anything from the Father's hand.

30 The Father and I are one.

I am just overwhelm at this time with all the crap in school. In my job, I do not know if i am on the right path. In the reading for this week. I am learning to let Go and let God. I miss hearing someone being there to lead me and cheer me on in my spiritual journey. I also miss the adoration quiet time I use to have. I am doing it in my space in Jurong but it is not enough for me. When I am back in IHM I would like to sit in the adoration room & just spend time with HIM. In June, I am so going to sit there and plan things for myself, I want to be there with God. To once again hold him, embrace him and talk to him.

Recently, I think a lot, I think of how I would like TOL to be. Together with the dream I dreamt 3 years ago. I know what to do now. I have a vision for our Group and this vision is not just set out by me but by all of us. - FAMILY

Friday, April 23, 2010

5 Cs

Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me will never hunger, and whoever believes in me will never thirst.” when i 1st saw this passage , the song that came to my mind is the "I am the Bread of Life"

Throughout this week, this passage has been in my head & what more todays session with Fr Antoine. It really made me reflect on who is more important in your life. one question also arise in my head is ... "if Jesus who saved the world, our saviour our friend," why do we keep him in a Box ? Each time we come for mass, 1 hour later we close the box & most people walk out of church straightaway. without even spending 5 - 10 mins talking to him any longer. In our 24 hrs a day 7 days a week, how often do we spend 1 hour with HIM. 15 mins already people complain, ask them do journal, even worse. Gosh! really amazing Who than is our God? our car, career, condo, credit card, cash or CHRIST?

Monday, April 19, 2010

Do you do what Christ wants of What the World tell us to do ?

A true disciple is challenged to seek for the "food that perishes" but to labour for the "food that doesn't perish"

Make a smart guess , what are the things that belongs to this earth ? Guess all you smart people would already have guess. Branded clothings, Branded bags, Status in the industry, Being the perfectionist while stepping on everyone else's toes. Eating in Luxurious restaurant, driving luxurious car. Following the paper chase society, getting into top school, top the class and even must top in sports. The list will go on & on...

The irony of this is, if all of you know what it is , than why do you still continue to pursue such things? is it coz everyone is doing it? is it coz it makes you look "glam" having it? Not that pursuing all this things is bad but the question comes in when we are so caught up in getting all these things that where is GOD in our lives then?... You don't see people doing a bible chase ( it is the most popular and best selling book in the world compared to your text book published by McGraw hill etc) or even Mass craze. or even going after the most luxurious thing in the world .. the CRUXIFIX & EUCHARIST

In today's reading , Christ challenges all of us, you and me to seek for the treasures that is not of this earth but of the eternal life. What then is your treasure now?

To me at this point in time, the most valuable treasure I have is the 3 Fs (Faith, Family & Friends.)
I guess all my life I am doing things that the world wants me to do that i loose the meaning of why I am even doing it. But doing what God wants and letting Him lead me to do what he wants makes my life much more colourful & exciting.

Faith, I would like to grow closer in my journey with HIM. Guess I am slacking in my walk this pass month and I do not want that to happen. Need to get back in communication with HIM. In church, things are happening and I don like it to happen as we are all serving the same God the same church and same community.

Family, the fundamental of my very being, the ones whom God choose for me & gave to me. My parents, brother, cousin , nieces & nephew & Godparents & even God Children. I don't and can't choose them, God placed them for me & instead of waiting till the day I die to realize how much they mean to me, I would like to spend my every moment with them QUALITY time

Friends, they walk in and out of my life, few stay and those who stay, I want to build the relationship with you & do not ignore me, do not push me away and don hurt me with your words... I am fragile handle with care.. as much as I am far (jurong) know that I am always missing you .... ALWAYS.

Lastly reaching out to others has always been a forte of mine. I would like to reach out to my classmates, students and staff whom I have come across showing them the love which YOU have & YOU want them to experience.

Dear God,
Help me to love as you have loved,
Let me lean not on my own understanding and strength,
but on yours.
Use me as your instrument to reach out to those in need
so that they may experience your unfailing love for them

Friday, April 16, 2010

Fun in NIE
My New Friends - Tutorial Group 2

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

John 3:16
"God so loved the world that he gave his only-begotten Son, so that everyone who believes in him might not perish but might have eternal life."

Hey that right about sums up how much God loves us. I remembered clearly a statement someone told me " No one should complete you except yourself ! "
I now understand what this person is trying to say.
Just wondering how many of you are looking for your other half & he / she has not appeared to complete you ?
I feel sad for you coz you will never be completed. No one should complete you except yourself. In order to love someone whole heartedly , you must be able to love yourself totally. I have never understood this meaning until recently (since last yr) as I learned to love myself more & let God take the centre position in my life. Coz it is only when we have him in our lives will we than be able to fully encounter his miracles & plans for us & you will start to LIVE (enjoy life). Look for the HEART EXPERIENCE - incomprehensible with out Human Intelligence. Everyday before I go to school, I would never fail to read the readings of the day. It made me reflect and think about life & how God wants me to see & do things for him. Dear friend, do you allow Christ to be the one to Complete you?

Throughout this journey in NIE , I find it very difficult but God never fails to be there to journey with me. Someone once told me to live with it. At 1st I felt it was a cold and harsh statement and I felt it was an insensitive word too. In many ways it is not easy for me.
1stly I have not been away from my parents for so long before. Apart from camps, I have never been away from home. It was not easy for me. Time away was lonely & even now I always yearn to go home. Somehow God has his ways and Godma & cousin always make me feel at peace. I too learn independence. Waking up early (on my own) making the bed, getting my own food (go without food if you did not buy)
2ndly I need social life. In school till now, I have friends and many to even count but compared to the Malay Colony , I have not found anyone friend whom I could makan with or even talk to. As much as I hate change, life is not easy trying to fit in to a new environment. God placed my brother & paul in the ICT over the next 6 weeks - 3 weeks paul , 3 weeks my brother
3rdly, I miss church , I have not been participating weekday mass for the longest time ever (except sunday mass) It is so unlike me, so not me and I do not like it. I really felt the word " HUNGER " for mass on Friday when I participated. God sends his Angels to pull me to church when I am back in Hougang

How about you ? how has God showed himself to you in your life recently?

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Seeing is Believing !!!

Doubt thou the stars are fire,
Doubt that the sun doth move,
Doubt truth to be a liar,
But never doubt I love.
- Hamlet Act 2 scene 2

In the same passage, Shakespears reminds us of the love Christ has for us, when we doubt that we can doubt that the birds are born from eggs, we can deny that dinosaurs once rule the earth, we can doubt that the world is made round and we can deny that humans came from apes but we cannot doubt the very fact that God loves us.

I am sure many of you after Reading this passage of Thomas, would always relate to the old folk tale of doubting Thomas . I remember my mother was also one of them who told me, "don't be like the doubting Thomas."

Today I urge all my dearest friend, to reflect deeper into your lives, when were the times you felt you were like doubting Thomas. As I read this the 1st time, it was long and obviously some of the words just slip through my mind. I realise as you search deeper, Thomas, though he doubted in the beginning, but soon after When Jesus appeared in front of HIM he uttered "my lord and my god." Honestly how many of us, if JESUS was to stand in front of you today, and allow you to touch his side & feel his hands, will seriously believe at the instant?

From one who doubts, Thomas started to believe, and ended as an Evengalist and proclaimer. We are Challenge today to Be like the doubting Thomas. - beg to differ what the old folks tale use to say.

How does this relates to me. This relates back to me in an incident today, sometimes in life we do doubt the existence of God and his ability, coz we think things would not happen in our humanly mind. Today I had a very big unhappiness in class, feeling uneasy about it I confronted the person involved. In all his Know how attitude, he argued back "in defense" (he did this before) than I spoke to my SD & partner in crime. After talking obviously I felt like crap still. Later on in the day, my darlings came out with me for dinner. We laughed and joked at the nonsensical things in the world.

And as I slowly reflected I realize sometimes I think I may want things to happen in the way I want it to. But what about looking from his pov. My BOYFRIEND'S POV. and as I reflected back on the gospel of today again 1 more time I learnt to let go and let god and let the kids grow coz HIS ability is far greater than any other guys in the world can overpower and if that is God's will to put him there in that tone, that way of teaching (AMEN TO THE KIDS) but " thy will be done".

Just a note: "if God is for us, who can be against us?" - it will take many Goliaths to bring Erica down but obedience to my BOYFRIEND is NO 1 - (ahem* see guys out there what you are missing out from me hehe*)

Wednesday, April 07, 2010


Somewhere in our lives we were once blind before. Some may be blinded by love, some may be blinded by greed, some may be blinded by lust, some may be blinded by the materialism of the world. Todays reading, is about the road to Emmaus. The disciples were walking along side with Jesus but they failed to know it was him. They were just so caught up in their beravement that they fail to realise Jesus was there

In our lives we too are blinded by all the things that we fail to recognise Jesus. In the past, I use to be caught up in doing this and that, but as I journey with Jesus closer each day , even in Jurong, I seem to see things with a new light. Loving my Family, being there when they need me, being there for youths who need my help.

Later on in the gospel the disciple's "eyes were opened and they recognized him" How often do we recognize God in the Eucharist? Do you just attend mass coz it is a sunday obligation. Do you want HIM to really turn wine into blood, bread into flesh than u believe. Or do you want him to APPEAR to you.

Sometimes in our lives, amidst all our pain & hurt, all Jesus wants of us is to just run to him and tell him "Jesus I need U" Have you done that? YES (raising your hands / nodding your head) many of you would sure say but how many of you would say YES to asking Jesus for help even if you are in pain. We are alway caught up dwelling in our own world of pain that we fail to recognize that Jesus needs us to just surrender to him.

Let us not be blind this Easter to the people and the Jesus around us. Our friends and family , the nature and the animals. All are signs of Christ Unending love for us.

Monday, April 05, 2010

The Greatest Gift of all - My Family
My Family in Church throughout the years - BHSU, CSC, Nativity & TOL
A Knight in Shinning armour - Driving his Mini to save my day & looking out for me when I am sick

We're just too hot, Be ware of us
I remember these 2 little ones, TOL camp.

She came late but still always my sis
Gaying around
Josh try smashing my face into the cake, Glenn you are in with my bro
Think Dunking was not enough, too bad all brothers will get a piece of the drench me too