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Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Paralyze


Paralyze is the complete loss of muscle function for one or more muscle groups. Paralyze can cause loss of feeling or loss of mobility in the affected area. Have you been paralyzed before? Have been restricted in your bodily movement before? How did you feel then?
In this season of lent, let us examine ourselves and look at our lives. Am I in anyway paralyzed by something ? Is something holding me immobile? What would that be?

When Jesus saw him lying there
and knew that he had been ill for a long time, he said to him,
“Do you want to be well?”
The sick man answered him,
“Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool
when the water is stirred up;
while I am on my way, someone else gets down there before me.”
Jesus said to him, “Rise, take up your mat, and walk.”
Immediately the man became well, took up his mat, and walked.

As i reflected on this passage in the adoration room, tears just flooded my eyes. I am totally humbled before HIM. In the reading today, Jesus actually asked the paralyzed man if he wants to be healed and Jesus Actually knows he is paralyzed for a long time. In the same way, Jesus himself knows our weaknesses , he knows our faults and our problems but it is up to us whether we want to run back to him and be humble enough to ask him to heal us.

Being paralyzed; I felt there were many things in my life holding me down and preventing me from experiencing the Fullness of his Love. In the TOL Journey camp, recalled Manfred's session, he asked us to reflect on "what are the things that are controlling our lives". Just the same as todays reading and my answer still stands the same. But what is more hurting is "what are the things that we cannot control?" I recalled my answer and I felt sad and I felt the need to talk to someone and so happen the person who happen to be there was Fr. He listened to me as I went on about my problems. After that I felt much better. But before talking to him, I felt trapped, hurt and lost as the more I try to run away from the things I cannot control, the more it comes back to haunt me. Sometimes it is to a point I do hate myself for falling so many times. I feel paralyzed but After today, I learnt to embrace the pain, I stopped and listen within myself and held on to the anxiety and pain I am feeling (learning to touch base with myself). I reflected on the suffering of Jesus in the rosary (so accurate! today is sorrowful mystery at mass)
Today in this season of lent, let us not only look at our inequity but rely on his strength to help us through all temptations. Someone special once told me, "it is not the amount of time u fall, but it is how fast you run to God to seek his forgiveness." He came to earth as a human , to suffer with us and to understand us. Let HIM journey with you through your pain and suffering, let him fill u with his love and embrace u in his care, just like a father would to a child.

There was a feast of the Jews, and Jesus went up to Jerusalem.
Now there is in Jerusalem at the Sheep Gate
a pool called in Hebrew Bethesda, with five porticoes.
In these lay a large number of ill, blind, lame, and crippled.
One man was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years.
When Jesus saw him lying there
and knew that he had been ill for a long time, he said to him,
“Do you want to be well?”
The sick man answered him,
“Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool
when the water is stirred up;
while I am on my way, someone else gets down there before me.”
Jesus said to him, “Rise, take up your mat, and walk.”
Immediately the man became well, took up his mat, and walked.

Now that day was a sabbath.
So the Jews said to the man who was cured,
“It is the sabbath, and it is not lawful for you to carry your mat.”
He answered them, “The man who made me well told me,
‘Take up your mat and walk.’“
They asked him,
“Who is the man who told you, ‘Take it up and walk’?”
The man who was healed did not know who it was,
for Jesus had slipped away, since there was a crowd there.
After this Jesus found him in the temple area and said to him,
“Look, you are well; do not sin any more,
so that nothing worse may happen to you.”
The man went and told the Jews
that Jesus was the one who had made him well.
Therefore, the Jews began to persecute Jesus
because he did this on a sabbath.

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