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Saturday, December 27, 2008

Whao it is finally all over but our journey of friendship has just began... well presents cast n crew.. you all rock man!!!

Well it has been a long journey but we all made it together.. and i don mean me alone but all of us.. and i am seriously happy that everything turned out alright.. gosh.. it was so cool the lights the audience the standing ovation.. oh my.. my heart just went out to him.. this is all for you my big friend.. just for you Happy birthday!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Young Tolers my budding talents


celebrating with the seniors


cast n crew... from a no. of onli 10 look how God provides







1988 babies.. love you all miss the times we have tgt .. but this is great too




Wednesday, December 24, 2008

I wanna wish you a merry christmas
I wanna wish you a merry christmas
I wanna wish you a merry christmas from the bottom of my heart

Merry chritsmas everyone@@ i know i have been busy and have not updated my blog but i am sure you all are too busy shopping n looking for the best gift for your friends but well would say that this christmas for me n many of my friends is a spiritual christmas..

in fact we did not exchange gifts but rather splurge our time in church to make the play a success

see u all on the 26th dec 730pm

Saturday, December 20, 2008

You know when i 1st saw this video , I really feel to the ground in reverance for the blessed sacrament. Something every christian take so lightly is something so adored by the youths in the video. Someone all christians take for granted but not these youths.

through these pass few months I struggle, I fall and i have yet to find him. But at one of the adoration services, I found this song so familiar, so close to my heart. I truely understood every line of it. I really miss HIM in my life for that few months .. but i know he is not far, he has never left me to carry my burden on my own. As this new year is about to start I pray that everyone of you out there will be able to find that GOD who is able to be there for you all the time like my GOD does.

Friday, November 14, 2008

I like the place i am in now it is fun and all people are so friendly
I like the environment and what i am learning
Hmm the grad night was great
DJ was cool drinks and company was good too !!! SHIOKEEEE

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

just came back from K box
whao tired like hell man!!!
look at the time already

sigh
sang all our fav songs tgt and songs which i use to listen while u were here

Ai zhuan jiao
dreaming of you
romeo & juilet
lian ai ping lu
shan hu hai
All my life
etc

each song i remember you our times our fun and everything with you
guess like i use to think to myself
i am surviving on these memories each time i am low ..

when will you be back ?

Monday, October 27, 2008

late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i wish on a star
somewhere you are thinking of me too
coz i'm dreaming of you tonight
till tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and there's no where in the world i rather be
then here in my room
dreaming about you and me

Good night !

Sunday, October 26, 2008

how are you there
is it cold?
how is everything ?
is food good?
are you eating well ?
do you know that i am thinkin of you here?
when you look at the stars up in the sky do you know i am seeing it too ?
are you warm ?
did you cover blanket?
is everyone taking care of you well?
bet you do not wnt me to ask so many question ?
guess you may not wanna hear from me while you are enjoying yourself .. but i truely wanna know how are you.
i might as well just care for you from afar

pls take care
pls drink alot of water
stay safe
do not talk to people you do not know
and take the right things
do not take raw food
sick pls do not eat so much panadol your live cannot take it
when you tired pls rest
dear .. take care

loves

Saturday, October 25, 2008

camp was great , i enjoyed my self. but it is also a grest time for ereflection and be with myself. I need a break from work n world. Thank you Edwina for the help. I will try my best. Thank you love you !

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Food

Food is something people would view as a substance for one to eat and digest. Something to keep one alive so as to do their daily neccessities and fulfill their job obligations. However in my opinion i would like to say Food to me is a delicacy , something to be taken to enjoy.

What about you , do you eat to live of live to eat?

Remember one of my friend ever told me when i was in the hospital "in order to stay alive one must eat". To me i enjoy every minute of the time with the food i get to eat and taste. From the mere hawker centre food, or Kopitiam to the high class restaurants like Lawryes.

It is honourable to even get a chance to eat. Lets just stop our work for a minute and take alook at the people around us or even the world for that matter. How many children and people out there who needs food but young children or even adults like us waste the food.

It is a food for thought .. it really explains my size now .. been trying not to waste food. So would you do your part?

Friday, October 10, 2008

Don't be a slave to your daily grind

My mum had just returned home from hong kong and she was so caught up in the day to day stuff that she has hardly had chances to shop, relax or even take a look at the latest style and fashion in Hong Kong.

Thinking back it has already been few years since she has been flying to and fro Hong Kong and Singapore. Time seems to pass us by so fast we can hardly keep track of time. The only thing she could look forward to was her contract renewal , tons of experience and a higher increment if there was to begin with.

I wonder how many of us are like my mum. Some of us pour our hearts and soul into our job often at the expenseof ou leisure , friends, families and health. 12 - 14 hours a day spent on working. It is hardly possible to imagine how much we are really missing.

When i tell people that i meet i work from 8 -5 and my day comprises of more than work many would look at me with the "yeah right " face as though in disbelief.

I often meet up with friends and never fail to ask anyone of them how was their day. Recalling one occassion when i met one of my friend and his reply to me was "I just got home from work"

It was already 10:30pm in the night and i had just finished a game with my friends , dinner with my family and even went out for a shop. On other nights i would occupy myself with other hobbies of mine, PSP, tv or even a stroll at the park. Felt a bit sorry for my friend though .

Well we do need to recharge ourselves admist all our busy schdule especially during weekends.
Having to wake up early and have fun the whole day is the best one can ask for. Its the weekends. Having a healthy work and life balance is something one should always never fail to adopt. Too much of work or leisure is never good. Work Smart, Play hard.

Life's too short to make ourselves a slave to the daily grind

With respect to living life to the fullest how can you my dearest friend do so.
Maybe here are some suggestions which you can adopt.

1stly interacting with people around us more often, from the cleaner lady in school or work to the canteen aunty or even the security guards at your condo or the waitress you meet. Positive interaction boost our moods and temperment.

2ndly, be thankful for the things that go right each day. an if things do not go as it seems like a jam on the road or a hold up while waiting for buses home, take it as a time for your personal reflections

3rdly, persue your passion. Do something you like. follow your heart and do what you think you should do.

Finally some us need to learn to forgive ourselves and others . We all make mistakes, so instead of playing these less-then-positive encounters over and over again in our minds, its best to learn from them and move on. The trick is to focus - on living your life to the fullest making everyday fulfiling rather then harping on the past.

Legendary actor James Dean once said, " Dream as if you live forever, live as if you'll die today."

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Assulted and left him brain damaged.

Reports of a 69 years old hawker assulted by a 53 years old man was sentenced to a two and the half years imprisionment. Mr AH, independent and a swinging bachelor, was seen beaten up by a Mr IM, a bouncer, at a hawker center. Reports that Mr IM suspected Mr AH of bullying his nephew, a fellow hawker.

Many stood around to look at the spectcle but few stopped the fight. Those who tried to stop were knocked down like pinballs.

Scenes of Mr AH being punched and kicked along the corridors to the exit of Bedok Interchange hawker centre. Fighting was never cease as it lead on to the driveway and leading to the carpark. Mr IM did not cease his punches and blows till the custom officers arrived and took him down by force.

Mr AH was left semi - conscious and was rushed to the hospital where he stayed for nearly 3 months. Though he is now discharged. Mr AH is wheelchair bound. Family members took care of him and even his sister had quit her job to take care of him. His brother in law had to take up more jobs in order to place food on the table for the family.

For the rest of his life, Mr AH will be a financial Liability to his family.

With reference to this article, Is this sentence too light ? What are your views?


Is the sentence too light? This question is not up to me to decide but the judge who sentence the perpetraitor. However if a stand has to be made, i would say that the sentence MR IM gets for his act would be way too light.

Defending Lawyer of Mr IM mentioned that he reacted at the "spur of the moment" and did not know what he was doing. However i beg to differ as if one is able to inflict such a pain and injury to someone at the spur of the moment, would be an anger that is kept within one for a period of time?
Taking a step back and thinking of ourseleves. Are we at times like Mr IM ? Reacting on our emotions and shutting our minds to think?

What really causes us to be so angry? Research has shown that anger is casued by 2 possibilities. 1) Frustration : Not getting what we want, especially if we were expecting to get it
2) Feeling that others do not respect us or care how we feel.

Why are people now a days more violent and angry ?
There are many causes that leads people to be more violent and angry nowadays. One can never be able to pinpoint what exactly leads to the cause of anger.

Personal or financial problems could be one of the causes. With the recent happenings in our society, the downfall of the Limon Brothers and many financial Institutions, parents or adults would find it hard to keep their job and frustration built up would lead to violence being potrayed in other ways.

Unsettling memories from the past could be triggers to one being angry. For example, children coming from broken families or families with parents being abusive would leave a scar imprinted in the minds of their young. Children being abandon by their biological parents would also lead to one being angry with their past. Even unhappy childhoods would also lead to anger being built inside of oneself
Media on the other hand plays an important role. At times it fails to bring out the true meaning of life but in turn potrays that anger is the best medicine to cure problems.
With our youths being so IT savvy, many of the information is being abstracted out of the internet. It's an ocean out there and not all sources are reliable and true. Many of the information on the Internet shows that one can take out on someone if they are angry and they would be perfectly fine. Games played like the Grand Theft Auto and Counter Strike, also shows how violence can be at times cool. Especially when no adults is there to guide these young innocent minds.
Friends influences on one also leads to one being violent or angry at different degree. If a Guy is out alone, and someone knocked into him, he would not show as much anger as compared to when he is out with his girlfriend and the girlfriend was being knocked. The degree to which he would show is masculinity would differ.


How and what can we stop such act ?
As the Information and Communication Technology is on the rise, People should use this as a form of communication to many youngs and educate them of the neccessity of being restrainted.
Family can play a part by education their children from young to have self control over their emotions. more time should be spent knowing what their children think as they face different stages in their lives so as to keep up with them and to be a guide for them to follow.
Values are to be brought about to these youngs through the school as the students now a days spend almost 12 hours in school and the best place that one can learn from , apart from home, is none other then their school. Having values in school is not just for everyone to see or for keeping the school in order, but to instill into these young lives that the importance of not being violent.

In view of this above case, people should learn self control and think before one act.
Are you ready to bear the consequences of your actions ?
Having yourself lend up in such a situation because you are just standing up for someone,
Is the source in which you are getting this information from reliable?
What happened to him?
Where did he see such an act?
Did you see it with your own eyes?
Do you have any prove?
Is violence only the best way to resolve the problem?
Lastly do always remember to :
Think before you ACT! Be Wise!
Our Thoughts causes our anger, Expectation determines Frustration.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Let's focus on the "Small Things" in life.

The past few weeks has passed us by just so fast.
Even Singapore hosted the Formular One race just flash us by like the wind.


Our heavy weight financial giants have been falling trumendously.
Stock markets plummeted just as speedily as anyone can imagine.
Queues formed quickly outside the American Insurance Association soon after the announcement of the fall in their big brother American International Group.

Big investors like Warren Buffet and Mr Oei Hong Leong quickly starts to pick up falling shares only to sell them after it rises the following day.

News of Melamined - laced Milk scandel spread like wild fired leaving Singaporeans in a frantic as they thrown away suspected products.

Students taking their exams, burning midnight oil, and parents runing amock stress over childrens exams and the results .

With so many things zooming by us so fast let's remember to always take a step back and take stock of the SMALL THINGS in our lives. Those real things that makes up our inner being. - our friends, our family, our health and faith.

We get so caught up in the BIG things in live that we neglect these Priorities in our lives. Before we know it, children have all grown up, parents all growing old with grey hair they always try to hide and we would soon regret that we did not spend enough time with them.

There was once a boy, he asked his dad, " DAD ! how much are you paid per hour?
and the dad who was astonished at his question replied, "
$ 50 my child!"
two weeks later the boy came back to his dad and passed him $50 He ASked ,
" Can i buy an hour of your time, please?"
He apprently skipped his recess and his meals to save up his allowance to buy time with his father.

I do hope that is not happening in any of your houses . One may think of building up his business and career so badly that he neglects his time with his family. OR another may think of working their ass off to stay in houses along the orchard roads or drive posh cars so as to attract everyones attention.

Author Robert once wrote "enjoy the little things in life for one day you may look back and realise they were the big things."

If you are going through a bad patch in your life than here is what Helen Keller an inspirational Blind, deaf and Dumb said," keep your face to the sunshine , you will not see the shadows"

And for all fellow friends who have tried their best in their exams and even in life but failed, here is something Mary Anne would like to say to you," Courage does not always roar, sometimes it is the quiet voice at the end the day saying.... i wil try again tomorrow."

Lets just take a look back at our lives have we really slowed down a little to find time to encourage the people around us? IF you are type who is quick to shoot your mouth off in a less-than-sensitive manner, a gentle turn around would always be worth a try. The would is going through a rough time right now and a less negative attitude could make this world a better place.

As MOther Teresa says, "Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truely endless. "

With this i will leave you with one of my common phrase, " the choice is in your hands, choose your path wisely and walk it down bravely. Don't ever look back for that was the path you chose on your own"

Monday, October 06, 2008

sigh tired really tired out.. burnt i would say 
just now p came in spot check .. sigh me sleepin
badbad cold bad day !! should i go home ? sick man!
i think i should 
yeah time is passing clock is ticking 
omg i dono man! very low coz guess me scared affect my bonus ba.. but i very sick le . but who knows right when i am sick ! 

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Just returned home .. was catching up with Carmen ! whao hey long since we did tt .. oh i mean like its been a week though haa pls tc of your leggie. still wanna go out shopping wih you though

well thought about a verse i read from matthew 14:22

Then he made the disciples get into the boat and precede him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. After doing so, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When it was evening he was there alone. Meanwhile the boat, already a few miles offshore, was being tossed about by the waves, for the wind was against it.
During the fourth watch of the night, he came toward them, walking on the sea.
When the disciples saw him walking on the sea they were terrified. "It is a ghost," they said, and they cried out in fear. At once Jesus spoke to them, "Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid." Peter said to him in reply, "Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water." He said, "Come." Peter got out of the boat and began to walk on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw how (strong) the wind was he became frightened; and, beginning to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus stretched out his hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" After they got into the boat, the wind died down. Those who were in the boat did him homage, saying, "Truly, you are the Son of God."


Well in life we are like the little boat traveling in the sea.. the Sea is our problems our worries. At times these waves are calm and at times they can b stormy. Well when we really take the step to walk into the waters to face the storm and set our eyes fixed on him is when we will not faulter. HE is our light the one who will guide us through our problems; the light house that every struggling boat look for in the storm.

Why then did he choose to let us walk on waters alone, he nv left us alone. he was always there to hold our hands . it is whether we choose to hold his hand and walk or focus and turn our eyes on him to walk in his direction.

Friday, September 26, 2008

alamak today ar.. whao .. caught in the rain .. GOD poured down his blessing on us man !!
hmm anyone got caught in the rain .. hmm yeah it has to be me. hahah !! lucky my baby was not caught in the rain. i tell you i was soaking wet la .. man !! i so do not like the sound of rain when i am all dressed up for school .. haha!! never mind it is ok .. got a bath and now i am fresher to work but still ZZZzzz feel like tt too so comfy ma. legs so clean couch so tempting !!! haha anyone would wanna sleep man !!

hai been working since GOD knows when this morning till now.. resting my butt for a few mins and off i will be with a survey for the sec 5 hmm our oldest boys in school.. hahah!! 

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Am i ready? Are you ready ? Ready for what ?
Well just now was attending a mass by Fr Luke, 
He is someone whom i would just enjoy listening to his sermons. 
Well he mentioned that many of the people out there are searching 
Searching for who he really is 
The bread and wine we part take at mass is really him 
something really struck me just now while looking straight at the eucharist, 
If cults and devil worshippers pay hundreds of dollars to just get hold of 1 consecrated host , why are people out there still not believing that he is the risen lord. Especially those who just come to church for fun and play and be sunday church goers. 
The things these cults do to the host are beyond imaginations as they believe that he is the one present in the holy eucharist, why are some of us just being worse than them. 
These was something which ran through my head as i was looking at him. I so miss HIM and HIS hugs, his company and his love. 
IT has been a while since i really push aside the hustle and bustle of the world to just be with myself n HIM. 

Well as i end my blog today i just wanna tell all you out there, there is this GOD that loves you alot even if the world abandons you , you still have him . Where is he. take your hand place it on your chest. He is in there .. SEARCH !
whao crazy mad day for me today!!
morning come school 6am 
set up lab.
run 2 labs at 1 time 
and later running around the whole school doing filming .. whao this is mad man!!!
gosh !! but i like it .. get to meet all my little devils again !!!


Wednesday, September 24, 2008

hmm me going to go mad soon man !!! nothing to do.. super de uperly relax !! omg,.. sigh i am super bored hmm nevermind i go look at my facebook and many things to play online.. sigh occupy my time.. hmm how have you all been . 

Syl was thinking of what you said of sunday! truely miss those times we had together.. running around and well now see you have grown up too .. into a pretty babe. hope everything is fine for you ! do tc hor !! smile!!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

ADDICTED

oh my i am so darn addicted to writing composition and compre. hahah miss those days man !!
guess what recently i am also addicted to 1 more thing 
the biscuit my school provide.. it is super de duper nice la. hahah .. well i so miss it when it ends and when our lounge have no more such stuff

hmm thinking again 12 tins of biscuits .. whao i am so spoilt for choices. I love this place it is making me gain my weight and lose my waist

Monday, September 22, 2008

MAMA MIA!
Thank you dear for bringing me for this show. 
Gosh ! it has been long since i watched a movie. 
It has also been long since i recap my retro me .. 
I so love the songs inside.. wanna get the CD OST 

Well after watching we went shopping .. bought moo3y! 
he is super cute la can!! 
hmm if got time i take pic of him and post it up 

Saturday, September 20, 2008

whao i am slogging my exam.. tired but enjoying my life.. my friends thanks for being there for me

Thursday, September 18, 2008

hmm came back just only ,,.. had loads of fun ..went out with carmen chill out .. well catch up with her. Told her some stuff.. not even my parents and you people know.. only her ... too bad people ..

Monday, September 15, 2008

Whao me very sian already .. exam coming around the corner. do hope i can do well.. working my ass off.. work and study at the same time is never easy.. sigh !!! anyways thanks to all my friends they have been giving me alot of support and i am alright now. piling myself with loads of work and loads of things to do .. in school and at home

thank you my dear ones for being by me all these while

Sunday, September 07, 2008

It has indeed been a wonderful and fun weekend.. omg i think this weekend i had so much fun .. didnt feel this way for a long time
Especially today
Why ?
Hey it is my darling korkor's wedding
Kor! you now are a husband already must learn to ove your family more ok ?
And must always tahan your wife le!
Oh and mei here wish you a wonderful and blissful marriage.
Hey you faster have bb and then i can have another niece already !
This is a letter to you .. not sure if you would ever read it

Kor,
All these years you have always looked out for me and loved me
from clubbing when you would fetch me home when i just turned 18
walk me up and gave me a earful
but i know you do care for me.
Always watching out for me whenever i am out
From young you played with our neighbours you took care of all of us, you being our big bro
All these i thank you and i will never forget your care for me
The countless sleepless nights you had for me when my comp crash , and chill out night to "lim kopi"
Kor now that you have another person in your life do not forget to love her just as much or even more .. I believe she will be just the right person for you .
You know just now as i see you walk down the aisle with her, my heart was just so happy for you. My KOR finally grown up ready to start a family.
Kor, must be happy k in what ever you do. I wil always love you ..

Mei!!

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Wha today super ubper shag!! went running around Novena. but this time i am not the one who is planning . must have succession plan right.. well i would say they did a pretty decent plan it is alright hiccupps always happen but learn from it girls.. you all are great!!! i enjoyed it too though ..

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Glad you feelin better.
Started my thinking this few days,
Took a step back and thought about somethings that happened
Well i guess i am enlightened.

1st things 1st.. don forget i am a wild weed, I cannot be pluck out nor can you destroy me. Only HE has the power to do so.
I will survive through the storm. Coz you know why.. HE is with me.
So Satan and all you people who try to block my vision from HIM .. get behind me.

2nd thing.. I accept your answer to me. Thanks for telling it to me but I have my piece of mind to say so please pardon my longwindedness. I am not asking you to change your answer or decision .

Why do you not dare to tell me all the things they said..?
a) coz it was not your decision . it was instigated by them ?
b) you still care for me that you do not want to tell me. I know you care coz i can feel it
Half the time you act strong to put on a front so people think you are strong.
How can I tell , Sis I read you like a book.

Why are all these people telling me to stay away from you? Who are they? Why is it time and time again people are standing btw us telling us to stay away and pulling us apart? There must be something about us that cannot be separated n that they feel inferior about. Isn't it?
Come on man ! the person ask me stay away from you let you mix with your own group of friends. hmm then shouldnt they too stay away too.. as long as you are older or younger do not mix with them must be your age one you know . (haha lol)

You know that day sitting at the table, they blammed everything unto me
1) you doing bad , grades flung
2) Smoke
3) Drinking
4) Depressed
Was told to stay away from you . coz i am the cause of it. . Girl do you realli think i am the cause of this? your CHOICE my dear CHOICE.

Why are they telling me all these stuff when they barely know me?
A matured adult would not or should i say NEVER say such stuff to a complete stranger without even knowing how he or she feels. Throughout the conversation I can tell that person barely knows us and what went on in our lives and what more about what i went through .
so my question to you .. is the person who talked to me matured? what more your so called youth leader.. !
So that person then trying to get into the good shoes of you ? or your love ones..? or for $$ ?

I know you . i know you listen to people What more you listen to people coz they are of higher authority / status. I dont blame you coz you are young. .. I know you want to get the love care and concern from the people around. You love to be loved but you have to think for yourself. Is this what you really want for yourself ?

Too much to comprehend girl. It is ok . think it through slowly. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak , It means you are strong enough to let go.
I will not give up our friendship never. Sorry guess you failed or your so called friends failed to push me away. BUT i will let you go your path. Will stand from afar and watch you grow.

To end off.. True Love prevails, When all things are wiped away just know that i will be standing there for you .

Love you always
Sis

Monday, September 01, 2008

it s the time of the year where educators get a day of rest and day of fun . Well wishes to one and all who takes courage to educate the young and show them the way to life.

Whao what a wonderful TEACHERS DAY i had/ am having man !
Thank you bro for being by my side.
I know you tried you vey best to cheer me up
I appreciate it.
The company was great the time spent was good
Hmm . i cannot ask for more and what more for you to be by my side when i needed someone.
I am so sorry you have to go through all these trouble with me
I didnt mean to bother you so much
Thank you for your company
Seriously , I didnt know what to do if you were not there.
Thanks for all the advices i got from you
YOU ROCK ! Thank you ! Love you !

in 2 days i did things i always wanted to do but i didnt do
Played b ball ABC
Played pool
Shopping
Just being out with people who appreciate me.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

guess you would read this to know what is going through me right now.

A BLADE THROUGH MY HEART PIERCED WOUNDED AND SCAR

I went to IT show today received an sms to meet for dinner I went
Don expect anything seriously good to turn out.
You brought along 2 people whom i don even know to sit for dinner
you didnt tell me - so much for respecting me
I felt like just turning back on you and walk off through out the dinner, I could but I respected you in front of your friends. DID you , to me?
You said you deleted your blog in my tagboard, you didn't. You lied again AGAIN!
You said you were nicer to me before. Yeah What happen now? 
You left someone unknown to talk to me for what ? you got no courage to talk ? It is seriously none of their problem. Settle it yourself gurl.
You told them i was after you .. please I just ask you if you wanted to continue this sister friendship we had. 
They said you were freaked out. please I just cared for you the same just that you didn't want.

Know what I was told: 

STAY AWAY from TESSA. 
Is this what you want? I will (if you want it... i will) 
I will get out of your sight.
I'll Never to be seen in front of your face.
I'll Never call you. 
You taking it very hard on yourself. (for what ... I never left you. I just change school.)
You drink , you smoke. (for what ... seek attention?  it is your choice)  
Don explode things that are small and easy to be solved.
Guess what ? YOu are baptised and you lied to me about you not getting baptised. Lied Again.

The talk (uncalled for)
Why? 
1) I just wanted to hear from you not them. (it is none of their business)
2) is that the way how people wanna get you away from me. (it is between you and me not them) - think about it .. all your friends want you to be away from me even teachers. 
3) I see you found your new sister who will share your problems with already. that is the reason you don need me.
4) They told me to let you know/mix Friends of your age. please , Mat and maine are also my friends so how can you explain tt
5) your work slack coz of me . you not performing well coz of me. Why is i my fault ? No one to blame for you poor results so push everything to me ( smart escape.. now i am the scape goat right?)
6) They say you donno how to sort out your emotions. I think you can but you refuse to face your own feelings. hiding behind a MASK and PRIDE in you. Why do you wanna harden your heart to people around you ? 
Just ask yourself:
- Is this what you want? (STAY AWAY from YOU)
- Is this called friendship? 

Why did i ask you what i did coz ....
You sms few days before and say you sad you crying you look through our past .. sorry for all the things tt has happened.
I just called you back and ask you if you still want this friendship to continue.
What is there for freak out? 
(so you didn't even mean what you say)

Seriously think for yourself gurl. Don let other people make decisions you. The CHOICE is in your hands. 

Good bye 
Thank for waking me up.
(I do not use friends and love things , but use things and love your friends, Do you?)

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Matthew Chapter 18
Dealing With Sin in the Church

    15 "If a brother or sister sins, [a] go and point out the fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over. 16 But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that 'every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.' [b]17 If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector.

    18 "Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be [c] bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be [d] loosed in heaven.

    19 "Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. 20 For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."


Well this passage hits me a lot. Why coz the portion where it says "If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector." it does not mean hate them or what it means to love them more. Why coz these are the people who people do not like or may have hurt people more and they represent people who hurt us, hate us and at times wanting to hide behind a mask. So i guess the more you hate me the more i will pray and love you. Once twice throw me down and hurt me. I'll still love you. If you shunt me away , i will just stand from afar and care for you. I'm not God I can try to learn from him.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

 Ask, Seek, Knock

    7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; those who seek find; and to those who knock, the door will be opened.

    9 "Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Everything seems so different. You , your words, hmm it hurts. you know it. Why do you impose your hurts on me? You want me to feel what you going through ? Well guess i am just your spare tyre. When you need me you will call .. when you don need me GET LOST ERICA that is what you would say. 

When you were down I picked you up cared for you. All i did was to leave and hope you would grow I did for my own good .. but what did i get in return. More hurt by you .

Monday, August 25, 2008

Judging Others

    1 "Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

    3 "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in someone else's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from the other person's eye.

    6 "Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.

Why do you do what others tell you to do? why do you not make your own choice? 

Sunday, August 24, 2008

just hang up the phone with my darling sis.. omg i am so scared. tomolo is exam .. i am not prepared. guess talking to her really made me feel much more better. I realli enjoyed that conversation.. Hmm just pure catching up!!! like we promise weekend is bitching week about anything under the sun!!

Asked her a few things and she still owe me replies for it.. but well I don expect much .. maybe coz I know I have hurt her and left her there on her own. I realli don wish to

Dear sis, I f you ever check my blog just know 1 thing .. the whole conversation just now with you was sincere and i meant every word i said. Sorry if what i did left hurts in your heart. But i realli hope that our friendship is stronger then that to go through more than that.

Love you alot sis.
see you soon

Saturday, August 23, 2008

IT seriously has been a long time since i have blogged.. well it was a funfilled weekend..

hmm what did i do..went out with bro.. well it was certainly fun and though it was a short time tgt.. guess just missed it ba.
Went out to my mum's office.. got drenched in the rain .. then went funan it mall.. omg spend 100++ on things for her.. GOD !!!! she realli spend alot of $$$

NOw sitting at home in front of comp doing up her movie.. I love her so i am doing this for her NOT for her OFFICE!!!

Mum.. know that ok!!!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

thanks for the lalabye last night ! hmm sorry wanna hear till i sleep ! love you
hey when you free wanna meet up ?
juat buzz me i'm here

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


whao so late i am still up ! I am soon gonna turn into a Bat
Hey have you been taking care of yourself?
How's school?
did Gan disturb you nowadays?
anyways
pls take care
love you always
your sis

Sunday, July 27, 2008

PLanning PLanning i'm enjoying this times tgt
Guys! jia you !

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Bye Josh ! Take care of yourself when you are away ! when winter wear more clothes
i'll take care of sis here for you til you return !!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

what is wrong
you want time
you want attention
I try i give what exactly do you want
something missin
yeah prob is that i am not able to be there physically with you anymore
as often as i use to be
you think i want this to happen?
what is wrong with you ?
why?
I sat down and i reflected since the day we got back
was it you or me who has change.
for the pass few days i know clearly it is not me
it is you ba
I tried smsing you keeping you informed of what is happening
call you when i come back from meeting immediately .. talk half way you sleep
I asked you out and pushed away another outing for you , you made me wait whole day no reply no call. God know what happen to you .
and in between when i do not sms you
you do not even sms me back.
may be you have found new friends
friends who can give you the attention you want
I am sorry i cant
but i am trying
why cant you see
why do you expect so much from me ?
I guess this time you realli need to ask yourself what do you want
What is seriously wrong with you .. are you pmsing or anything.
maybe i should have anticipated your demands on me when i left school.
yeah is it all my fault
I am not good enough a sister.
Well i will take my step back from now ba.
You found your friends you are close to go ba.
you need your space and friends who would give you more time and attention than i can go ba
My advice to you nowadays doesnt seem to go in
you have change...
i tried ... gave up things for you time for you and even people who mean loads to me. you left me there ... what is the meaning of this
I call you don pick up . Who is this sister ?

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

You always say you'll carry me on
but when i fall, you stand and watch
love and care , are they for real
all despair, thats what I'll not will
I'm tired, I'm broken
I'm lost, I'm Shattered
Leaving a place so nice to a place so hearten
I'm smiling, I'm happy
but not for the reason
the truth is I'm happy coz i know you will grow
But I am not happy where I am.
Each time people ask a false answer given


Monday, July 07, 2008

hi bro
Great to see you
you came all the way to find me
Thank you for your company
I missed the laughter
I missed the fun
It seems like good times all at once
I truely miss of this

Sunday, July 06, 2008

I dono what is going on
What have been going through your head
You asked for another chance.
I gave to you, you blew it.
If that person was not you i would have walked out
I cared
I loved
I carried you
I watched over you
the happy times, sad times and teary times
I shared all with you

I thought you knew
the things I like
the path I took
the things I hate most
why do you still choose to do?

You are young
You are still growing
but does that give you the chance to do these things ?
It is not about age any more
It is caring about the ones who love you
It is Loving those who mean alot to you

Should i Let go?
Should I Stop?
Should we just go our separate ways?

I thought I left you will grow
I thought you will be a Good girl
People may know I left coz of environmental change
but you of all people should know why I left

You say you will mature
YOu say you will grow
YOu say you will be good
You say you will not do things i Do not like
But Why ?

I wanted a sister
I wanted it badly
I am hurt when thiings turn out this way
I love you but how long more can my love last if hurts overwhelms my deepest soul.
I'll let you go if time permits me so, to care, to love and to grow
Forever you will be my dear but from far I'll watch you here.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

1st day in the new school
everything seems so new everyone seems so unfamiliar! Scared
what is going on ?
worried
will i be able to meet up to the standard of School?

Miss alot of people
Teachers, staff and students
most of all ....
Anthony
Sis.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

i am leaving this school
i miss you all so much
students:

Sec 1& 2: i may have taught you all a while but this few terms you brought a lot of laughter to me. Fun and even Joy ! I love you all alot. Know 1 thing I cant bear to leave you all. Seriously i will always remember all of you !
The letter i wrote to each class. Is from my heart and i realli enjoy the times we shared

Teachers & staff: Some of you are realli dear to me and i cannot bear to leave you all . Though it maybe my last day but our journey as friends will never be a last Goodbye. Its forever.

Anthony: Brother! though this maybe our last day together but i will never say goodbye to this friendship. There was a time we were cold to each other. I do not want another time of this. No fun ! I like the last few months we shared together. Talking Joking, Laughing just sitting in the same lab doing our own things. I have grown to enjoy every min with you ! Thank you for the times you have stayed by me through bad and good. BAd times you nv fail to cheer me up. Good times you just doubled every moment of it

Sister: The one and only sister in this school. I realli miss you . But like what some people say, If i did not leave you will not grow i will make the big sister decision. All this i do, i do hope you will grow to be a strong girl. Independant. Do not always be sad or even show those sad faces. I'll be watching over you. Though we know each other for less than a year but i do know the things we went through is alot. I do hope that from now on without me, you will learn to walk on your own and care for the people around you . I will always be with you . In my heart.
I have taught you all that i have learnt and stopped you from walking down paths of mistake jie has walked down.
Love your friends: Care for them and be friendly to everyone
Love your Family: They are the ones who need you most and they will always be by your side

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Saturday, June 21, 2008


200 stalks of roses WHAO!!!

JUS for me
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Friday, June 20, 2008





Polar BEar !!! So fluffy !!


Rhino Attack


Butterfly


Tortise Slow!!!
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

At the age of 17, Jim Valvano(father) took out a simple white card and wrote down all of his goals that he wanted in life. He would play basketball in high school and college, become an assistant basketball coach, then a head coach and finally winning a National Championship.

At the age of 36 Jim had completely crossed out all his goals he set out to achieve on white card. Jim once said, "There are 86,400 seconds in a day. It's up to you to decide what to do with them." Jim has authored books, given many motivational speeches all over the country, hosted weekly television broadcast and has even appeared on The Tonight Show and The Cosby Show.
"I want to do other things, learn about other professions. I refuse to limit myself to whatever boundaries you may think surround a coach's position. Very simply, I enjoy diversity", says Jim in a press conference. Each and every new challenge only proving that his talents were endless. Jim had the "I can do that" attitude and live each moment of his life to the fullest.


Jim Valvano worked hard to motivate, stimulate, entertain and inspire anyone that entered his life. The world was similar to his basketball team and he wanted everyone to be winners. In doing this he hoped that people would learn from the way he lived his life.


Metastatic Adenocarcinoma would prove the toughest hurdle that this coach had ever faced. The doctor had informed him that he only had a year to live. In Jim's last interviews he announced that he wanted to help every cancer patient.


He spent the final ten months of his life giving the world personal insights into the life of a cancer patient in the hope that he could bring some attention to the disease that affects millions. He wasn't afraid to let other people see his weakening body or even the tears that shed when he spoke of his certain death. He knew that his body would lose the battle against cancer, but his vibrant spirit was the gift that he would leave behind.

Jim Valvano is an example of one individual that can influence this world with the never give up attitude. So, research an idea and plan and expect success & just do it! Live life to the fullest and enjoy every second!!

Monday, June 02, 2008


My dear n me at the airport


My dear n me in the bus


*Smile*
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Thursday, April 10, 2008







Animology Test




Blue Fox-You are a born leader who cannot resist a challenge. You are driven to excel and a perfectionist. You consider yourself as the king of all animologies and have a lot of dignity. -Soulmate: Yellow Trout-In conflict with: Green Puppy
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Monday, April 07, 2008


Cannot come down


mei scared of heights


ops she is still up there


even on see-saw

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Friday, April 04, 2008