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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

this was something i got from xiao mei (samie)
it touched me and made me teared

u two r so similiar living examples of life and friendship
it take a thrid person to see how much more there is to ur frienship
the struggles and problems u go through
the truth u both have to face reality
and yet perserverence
and love friendship that goes throught everything together that cannot be broken
that grows stronger
and strengthens
this is powerful
i believe god has used both of u in this way to show others
and touch their hearts and life
both of u are all so amazing
remember... 'dont let your faith cloBber your faith' - facing the giant

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

hmm today was kinda happy coz i know today my mei mei coming to find me
i started off with a bad day
i love to stay in school to keep them company
but i hv work to do
gotta leave them
gotta leave school
i don want
but have to
i am sad
i am alone
i miss school days
i want peoples company
hmm hope things turn out better for me
I just hope soo
God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You .......4eva i'll remember u SISTARS says:
ask u smth ... i was thinking of it the whole night ...aft ytd... are u doubting that i still love u do u regret loving me do u still love me r u still my jie jie just many many questions ...
My greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. says:i just wanna reassure you again :I don doubt my mei I still love you i nv regreted loving you even though if one day you will walk out on mei love you to the coreand i wil always be you jiei'll hold you and walk with you all the way


God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You .......4eva i'll remember u SISTARS says:jie
ask u ... do u believe now that we will go through much more things togehter? we will be able to go through much more stuff tgt ?
My greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. says:
mei i think tht we are able to go through everything togetheri will b there for you and no matter what is it i will hold you close to me and nv let you go...

i know this blog is coming in i donno how it sound but well yeah i would just say it
when i was walking into the room
i was sitting in front people whom i totalli donno
but i do hope they just all wanna help mei mei
all i stood there was to helplessly stare
and i know they mean well
i know what they did was right
but that person stnding outside my window looking in
how would she feel
have i hurt u?
have i betrayed ya trust?
what i did was it right?
how do i tell u?
should i tell u?
what should i say?
i just love you too much
i don wanna see you cry
i just love you too much
i don wanna see you hurt anymore
i was lost totally
sandwiched in b/w
I did it coz i love you
do you know?
would you ever realise that ?

later on when i am calm and collected
i told myself
i have to tell her
mei:
would you walk out on me?
would you be angry with jie?
would you be able to accept what i have done for you ?
would you let jie walk this way with you?
i told her .. (details shhhhhh)
i just couldnt help but cry when i told her
i don wanna lose you
all the tots before came to my head
i just wanna hold you close..

when i held your hand
i let go of me
i just tot to myself..
I guess this time i have let her HAte me more
let it be ba
no matter wht it is i wll still love you
butlater when she stretched out her hand to hold me
i took it and all i wanted to do was to hug her
Thank you dear
i will always treasure you

When you think i nv speak to you
it tht i do not have confidence
that what i say will hurt or not
but i plucked up the courage to tell you this
"when i 1st held your hand i lost the world to you
coz u mean so much to me
when you say I love you
i held your problems with me
But only coz i love you so much
that i will walk with you every step of the way
when you 1st hugged me
i felt your love so strong
This was when i know i found and Angel ,
that is you "

i love u meimei deep down in my heart
i love u meimei deep down in my heart
let talk abt deep deep down down deep down in my heart
let talk abt deep deep down down deepd down in my heart

Monday, October 29, 2007

now sitting in my mums office...
i just realised this morning i didnt bring my ezlink card..
i took a cab to office handed the work in and took a cab to her office
now i am rather not in a good mood.
i felt played out.
but than again i know you are sick..
but don care lor.. i just have not eaten.. waitin by the phone
sometimes i feel like a fool
sometimes i feel like an idiot
i donno how come i can care for somone so much
but i just hope i do not get backfired
i just do not what is running through my head
i came down to see you
but when i got here
you head for the bed
i felt like fool
i feel like a toy
i dono wat to do..
tell me then dear one.. what are you doing
i call you don pick
i call you don answer
thanks so much for the comfort..
i just am lost
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Pic i saw saw

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Sunday, October 28, 2007

IHM babes


my beloved brother and sis -- i love you all to the Core man

mei i love your Tee- Shirt
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today was very happy .. woke up so earli .. and didnt go catechism classes..
i went to pick mei up
i was kinda thinking in my heart
how would she feel when she comes.
i realli scared she would realli be lost
then i picked her up
brought her to meet paul cos i needed spare battery
Collin D made a fool of himself as usual
using rubber boat to slide down steps .. omg
than later went or mass with brothers (daniel and Ian) and mei
than in there i kept looking at mei
i know she felt lost
i guess me not good host
so yeah!
Than later after mass i called my darlinks
they said they at vivo
i went with daniel n mei own to find them
omg daniel made me walk to serangoon mrt
whao i so love you daniel
than after that we were talking and laughing all the way
we went X-Zone look for them when we reach
than they were playng para para
omg it was amazing la
Daniel and the guys danced too
shaking their boodies
later went to Charles Junior shared with mei and bro drinks
hmm i have no ideo which one was hers and which one is mine
i just know i had a great time with her
at the end of the day i sent her to Expo an than left
mum came to pick me and we went home
paul waited for me at my house there
very sweet of him

Darlinks:
Thank you for all your comapny
it was reali great
i miss you all to the core
i am sure gonna miss you al when i leave for UK
must miss me okie
HAve a great Holiday

Mei:
Welcome to IHM .. it was realli fun having you around
i know you look lost
i will be there to hold you and guide you
I love you babe
nice spending the entire day with you
in fact i enjoyed the entire week end starting from thrusday till today !!
Thanks for your company
HAve a great Holiday


Daniel:
Brother you everytime say you sad
you say i abandon you for the newer friends i have
I have always been there to watch over you
i will always do so
coz you are some one too precious for me to lose
I know you have your own life now
School, Work, GF
but at the end of the road i am still there to be wit you
no matter what happens i will be there
or should i say i am there

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Tessa I love you Forever and Ever

Thank you for loving us!!!! We love you too
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I love you Tessa

Sammy

and you too sam

forever and ever
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my sis n me.. familiar scene 20 yrs ago .. bro i miss you

i look pro eh!!!

my beloved sis

group pic
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"teach me"

sisterly love

ferry's wheel

our singapore babes
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Thursday, October 25, 2007

I remember walking to school today with my mei mei and i was teasing her about Chicken soup... u know what mei.. i also love that book i use to be crazy about it when i was younger... so here is 1 story 4 you

Pebbles
One night a group of nomads were preparing to retire for the evening when suddenly they were surrounded by a great light. They knew they were in the presence of a celestial being. With great anticipation, they awaited a heavenly message of great importance that they knew must be especially for them.
Finally, the voice spoke, "Gather as many pebbles as you can. Put them in your saddle bags. Travel a day's journey and tomorrow night will find you glad and it will find you sad."
After having departed, the nomads shared their disappointment and anger with each other. They had expected the revelation of a great universal truth that would enable them to create wealth, health and purpose for the world. But instead they were given a menial task that made no sense to them at all. However, the memory of the brilliance of their visitor caused each one to pick up a few pebbles and deposit them in their saddle bags while voicing their displeasure.
They traveled a day's journey and that night while making camp, they reached into their saddle bags and discovered every pebble they had gathered had become a diamond. They were glad they had diamonds. They were sad they had not gathered more pebbles.
That story was featured in an article written by John Wayne Schlatter, from the book "A 2nd Helping of Chicken Soup for the Soul".
Every experience, whether small, overwhelming, joyful, or upsetting, is a pebble we find on the road. If we leave it there on the road and glean nothing from it, then we will end up with an empty bag at the end of our journey.
However, if we begin to cherish and appreciate every pebble, learn something from it, and keep it in our bags, we will finish our journey with a bag full of diamonds.
The irony of the story is in the arcane message delivered by the mysterious voice, supposedly the voice of God. Understanding fully the nature of Man - which is to be suspecting and lazy - he knew from the beginning that the nomads would finish their journey both glad and sad.
Not one of them was faithful or industrious enough to follow the instructions properly, and so they all ended up regretful that they had not gathered more pebbles. Treat every experience in life like a pebble that will yield a diamond in the future. In this way, you'll ensure that you constantly develop and grow, as well as accumulated a wealth of knowledge to enrich you in the years ahead.
me very happy now
my mei mei came to my house there to pick me..
honestly i dono what got over me i just woke up so earli
i got up 2++
.. got bored.. Wrote lettert to my meis
3++
sms mei and tot she sleeping so
i clean my room..
4++
sms her to wake her up
then go clear my dinning etc..
5++
change my bed sheets and arranged toys
6++ wake parents up get bedsheets
and fell back to sleep
7am mei mei ask me if i in school
than she came to my house to pick me..
so sweet la
*huggies*
guess this day is gonna be a happy day
i do hope nothing bad turns out seriously !
Hi guys


i not sure how nice this show is ... but this show my dears neighbour in hall is acting in it.... Loo Zhihan.. handsome guy!!! check him out in this film


PLEASURE FACTORY

Inspired by true stories and real-life characters, PLEASURE FACTORY, shot on actual locations, tells an intriguing and intimate tale involving pleasure seekers and pleasure providers in Geylang; Singapore's popular red light district. Over the course of one night, a young cadet loses his virginity; a teenage girl gets initiated into the pleasure manufacturing process; and a jaded prostitute pays a young busker good money in exchange for a song he never gets to sing... Yang Kuei-Mei of Ang Lee's EAT DRINK MAN WOMAN fame plays a pleasure provider who witnesses a young girl being inducted into the pleasure manufacturing process. Thailand's heartthrob Ananda Everingham plays an outsider who roams the streets of Geylang after an unexpected encounter at a road-side convenience store



Cast: Yang Kuei-Mei, Ananda Everingham, Loo Zihan
Director: Ekachai Uekrongtham
DramaLanguage: Mandarin
Release Date:25 October 2007
Running Time:85 minutes

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

hmm thinking about somethings and tot i told mei

i am realli happy you are coming over ..
in fact i am not sure if your 1st visit would be splendid
i try to give you what i can ..
it wil not be an act .. it will not be bluff..
this would be how my church is

i sincerely invite you over
i would like to bring the one whom i love
so dearly to you
(GOD himself)
i not sure if things would turn out as you expect
but do not expect a lot

if you really don like i wont force
thank you for willingly come to my church
and i wanna say 1 thing
THANK YOU for GIVING me a chance to bring HIM to you
Believe in Yourself
To achieve any goal in life, you must believe you are going to be successful. This conviction gives you the strength and resilience needed to achieve your objective. It also helps you to actively seek and recognise opportunities and stepping stones.
So how can you develop a powerful sense of self-belief?
Before you begin any endeavour, you should be confident that the end result is possible. Don't focus on whether it's been done before or not. Don't listen to others who might be feeding you with negative thoughts. Be clear in your own mind that the goal can be achieved.
More crucially, believe that the end result is possible by you. We often hold limiting beliefs about our own ability to achieve goals. We may believe the goal is possible, but we often don't think it's possible for us to achieve it. So identify those beliefs that are holding you back and take time to address them.
Now that you know you can achieve your objective, how much do you want it? The more we want to achieve a goal, the bigger the hurdles we'll jump over to get there. So choose a goal you really want; take the time to ask yourself why you want it and how badly you want it. What are the values underlying that goal? Is it a desire to help people? A yearning to be your own boss? Or is it to do something that allows you to spend more time with your children?
Next you have to believe that you deserve the end result. Hidden under the surface in many people is a belief that they do not deserve to succeed. Because of some deep-rooted experience that caused their self-esteem to decline, these people often choose to remain where they are, or even slide, because they feel that they are not worthy of success and happiness. When they try to take action, this belief restricts them, they lose motivation, and fail. But always remember that if you work consistently toward your goal, you deserve all the success you get.
Also, achieving your goal should not contradict any other beliefs or values you have. For example, if you believe strongly that rich people are greedy, you'll probably not be motivated enough to build a successful business. Try aligning your goals with your values. An entrepreneur perhaps could work towards making a lot of money so that he can use part of that money to help the needy.
Believing in yourself and your ability to achieve your goals is the first step towards building a better future for yourself.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Ease Your Emotional Burdens

Do you remember your primary and secondary school days, when you had to trudge to and from school every day carrying a back-breaking haversack, clutching a bunch of books in one arm, with a water bottle slung over your shoulder? What a heavy burden that must have been for your little young body!

And although we probably don’t tax our bodies with such loads as adults (not on a regular basis anyway), most of us still carry around burdens of a different kind. These burdens we cannot see or touch, but they weigh us down just the same, preventing our hearts and minds from finding greater joy and peace of mind.

These emotional burdens mainly consist of regrets over what we wanted to happen but didn’t, agony over past events that we wished never happened, resentment for people we feel have done us wrong, who didn’t show us the respect we expected, or didn’t love us the way we wanted them to.

These things are like invisible claws that keep our spirits anchored to the ground. We find that we cannot be happy or peaceful for very long because they keep returning to haunt us.

Regret and resentment are the biggest adversaries of our happiness. They have so much power over us because we cannot bring ourselves to forgive the people we begrudge, because we cannot forgive ourselves, because we cannot let go of the past. We continue to hold regret and resentment towards others because, bizarrely, we feel that in this way, we can somehow make them suffer. But it’s no skin off their noses. In the meantime, our own bitterness persists. It’s cruel irony that in trying to get back at others, we only end up hurting ourselves.

The only way you can reduce or get rid of regret and resentment is to forgive. Forgive the ones whom you feel have trespassed against you. Forgive yourself for the things you did, for the things you didn’t do. Forgive the circumstances, events and conditions you thought led to your situation. Remember that bearing grudges hurts no one but you.

Besides, it’s never clear-cut if someone or something is completely responsible for our situation. It’s often a combination of factors. We judge harshly because we do not see the mitigating reasons. And whether we know it or not, we ourselves have hurt or let others down before. If we can so clearly see the misdeeds others have perpetrated against us, surely others can just as vividly see the offences in us. Which one of us can claim to have no flaws, to have never acted selfishly or in a fit of anger?

Purge your soul of the toxins of regret and resentment and embrace greater joy and peace.

My Dear extracting his tooth

you're a brave boy

his 2 big teeth
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I know i always wanted mei to be my real sis and i really wanna protect her
i asked her if she wanna join in our church lessons - be it - RCIY / Catechism
would she mind... and in the event of BAptiSm we become sisters through the eyes of GOD
She didnt stop to think
she gave a definite answer
I dono if i am asking alot from God
but i do hope we really become sisters in Your -dear Gods - eyes
i was talking to mei mei today than we made a pledge
Nice Romantic time at US - Ben and Jerrys Ice Cream

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rain overcasted sky in school


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Monday, October 22, 2007

hi everyone!



You know something i seldom blog reflections but i guess this is something really useful to all those out there who are facing difficulty in life.. there are many ways to deal with your dificulty but maybe this sorry can help you



Dealing With Negativity
Our lives these days are filled with negativity - terrorism, disease, natural disasters, war. The messages we receive on a daily basis mostly aim to induce a feeling of dissatisfaction, envy or fear. As life gets more stressful, we encounter more negativity from our family, friends and co-workers.
How we deal with this information is up to us. We can either absorb it all and allow it to negatively dominate our thoughts, emotions, attitudes and our day-to-day lives. Or we can view these events as an unfortunate but unavoidable part of our existence and concentrate on those things we can do something about - such as our own personal lives and how we can positively influence ourselves and those around us.
The more we focus on the "bad" or negative things around us, the more our thoughts and behaviour work towards an undesirable outcome. But if we change our focus to the good things of life - the positives - there is an above average chance that things will get much better. Negatives fill our emotional bucket quickly and before we know it, they are spilling all over ourselves and those around us. Isn't it far more logical to fill our bucket with positives? The people around us are sure to be much more receptive to any spillage the might occur.
If your optimism is taking a beating, try saving some time for yourself and writing down the good things in your life - the things you enjoy and appreciate. Start with the fact that you even woke up this morning, then go from there. No matter how bad your situation is, if you try just a little you'll have plenty of items on our list. Keep the list handy and add to it as you think of other things. There will always be days when your list will come in handy to give you a pick-me-up.
Be selective about what you read, watch on TV, hear on the radio and the music you listen to. Think about the information your mind is absorbing and determine whether it's really good for you. Be selective with your friends and pay attention to the conversations you are having. Is the relationship - or the conversation - based on negative words and feelings? Would you be better off changing the subject - or finding someone different to spend your time with?
And watch your "self talk". This is the imaginary conversations we have with ourselves and others, especially when there are potential conflicts on the horizon. Stop "badmouthing" the people in your life and stop "badmouthing" yourself! Every time we do that, we are reinforcing to ourselves just how miserable the world is and how unfortunate we are.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

maine : today is has been nice spending the day out with you .. just to have you by my side talking and chatting about anything seems like the good old times we have.. thanks for sharing with me how you feel ..


Guys: hope you all not too late back to church.. time spent with you all were great.. it was fun fun ... ienjoyed every moment of it.. hmm though short but it wasvery fun fun!!
YEAH!!! Hey no matter what it is .. you all picked a event to help do committ yourself to it k ! jia you ! you are on your way to be a full fledge catholic (Adult)
I love you all guys .. cant wait for 24th nov when i see u all in white .. pledging to be SOLDIERS OF CHRIST !

mei mei : i kno wthe whole day you have been keeping me company ..wathing over me.. it was very fun having to tok to you as and wheni can.. you know i have always been happy to hear that you are ok and enjoying yourself. !!! I love you babe
i am just thinking about things now:
i seriously dead miss you so much my mei :
maine:
you have always been by my side cheering me on.. giving me help..
when i saw you in church today .. i just felt so much . that my dear is there by my side and i just wanna hug you and nv let you go.
Thank you so much for sharing your tots and prob with me.. i know i cannot do much but to listen.. but i wil always b by your side watching over you .. thanak you for all your support in the pass week.. when i realli needed somone there for me

Joshiwawa:
you have been there though very far.. but i seiously miss you a lot..i didnt wan you to go.. i dono i reali wish you were here.. but i am always glad that you are there and spending credits to call me..thank you .. you have been there for me depite your prob school work etc.. you rock baby

Matt:
Thnk you for always being understaning and helping me along.. you aresomeone whom i can rely on all the time.. you are really caring person who puts others 1st b4 you .. thank you for always asking me how am i?

guys thank you so much i love you deep deep

Saturday, October 20, 2007

National Rap Battle Champion Mike Basa

Hmm badly taken but hmm i stil like the pic ..

All Star Shoes

Do i stil need to to pay fare?
You know something people i am kinda happy when i saw mike won... you deserve it man!!! well later we went to Retro room dance a while than i dono what told me to leave NOW! and i left.. so i saw John- Boy on the way ..korkor i miss you tons.. thanks for riding with me back... hey i miss u so much ! anyways do hope you doing well .. later went home mum pick me up from Kovan and went home change and went to tok to dear and mei mei! I guess mei mei kept saying me very cute .. i think coz i lost my voice .. screaming so much for mike just now~! ANyways it is always nice to sleep to the 2 of their voice !!!
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Friday, October 19, 2007

Dear mei and me ! did you notice anything about her hair....?

SHe pin up her hair!!!! Wheee Wheet!


even tied it up too :D

in a toilet at Virtual LAnd ECP
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