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Saturday, February 13, 2016

Take up my cross and follow U

Day 2 of Lent

Yesterday's readings is a shout out to all, " if you wish to follow Him, you must deny yaself, take up the cross and follow me." and Moses also reminds us to follow the commandments given to us.

What are the crosses u have to carry at this point in your life?  What are the things in life weighing you down?

As a kid, I was always envious of working adults as they have the spending power. Studying was my cross to carry. It was a chore and tiring as I thought it would "kill" my brain cells. But now as a working adult, work isn't easy either,  it can sometimes be challenging as well. Having to work to pay bills,  loans as well as spend within your means and what u earn. At times, our little cross would entail even having to tolerate the quirky behaviours and ways of our superiors,  colleagues or subordinate as well.

Well as the saying goes the grass is always greener on the other side. However yesterday's reading reminds us of to pick up whatever little crosses we have and surrender it to Jesus.

So if u are making ya way to work, should you meet a roadblock with anyone or any problem, remember to look towards the cross and offer ya worries unto the loving God u know.

My lent journey begins

Ash Wednesday
The season of lent is not to reduce to a season of depression n sorrow.
Now is the favourable time,  we are invited to come back to God. Come back to me with all ya heart ... The heart seems to chasing after many things except God. Our great season of great reunion,  with God n with his church.  Prayer, fasting and alms giving. Don't reduce these only these things.
It is not just these,  but rather the real spirit
A renewed relationship with God. Fasting pray and almsgiving. It is what we are doing,  but rather how we are going about it.
Recognise it as a true spirit of lent. Have mercy on us lord for we have sin. We come back to him but responding to him n love. This greatest fruit this season, is the fruit of mercy.  This is to become merciful like father. Fast for the intension of others, the prayers.  The season of lent invites us to be merciful like God. We come together as a community, all because we believe he is loving us.

Yesterday marks the beginning of lent. As I spent the whole of yesterday reflecting on what I would do as a sacrifice for God, many obstacles came running in my direction. I was lost and even bewilded as what should I do. How am I to sacrifice when I am struggling with my own iniquities?

This season of lent invites us to be merciful just like how God is. It is also a respond to God's call to return back to God from our sinful ways and habits.

There may have been many things that might have happened over the last year that brought disappointments, sorrows or even hurt. However this lent, we are called to turn back to him. Rely on Gods mercy and strength to let go of these pains. Prayer Almsgiving or fasting are ways we can sacrifice for lent. But let's not limit ourselves only to these things. There are many things in life we can do to respond to his call to love.

So after much reflection, I decided to lay all my worries at the foot of his cross. Walk with Jesus these 40 days and take up my little cross and follow him... In prayer n in love. When faced with crossroads in my life, leaving it up to Him.

What about u? How would you respond to this calling of God to return to him?


3rd day of lent

Yesterday's reading was a lesson on Humility. Sometimes in life we need to be humble no matter what profession we are in and to whoever we meet. It's so easy to turn our backs and get angry with "unfair" or "unjust" situations rather then looking at the full picture.

In Isaiah reading, it reflects on the spirit of fasting. Fasting not just in food but spiritually and emotionally fasting. Sharing love peace and joy around. Reaching out to those who needs a listening ear,  the hungry and those who may be less fortunate than u are.

In this period of lent, we are called to also learn to be humble. Restrain from conflicts, quarrels and even fights. The courage and Humility to say sorry to those whom u know u may have hurt through ur interactions we them. Let's not be like Anger.

So dear Lord as we spend this time with you, journeying thru with u, I pray o lord, that u create in me a contrite and humble heart worthy and ready for u.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Living on the edge with Him

It's once again back to the fun times I used to have outdoors. I miss the sun, the sand and the sea. The guy behind me agreed to paddle me out to take pic of my girls... I was uncertain but trusted his suggestion. At times as the kayak suave I was unsure if we were going to capsize. But still I kept on a straight face and did what I was out there to do. That's what Living on the edge and embracing the uncertainties of life, trusting totally in God and his hands at work. This camp has indeed brought memories back and a lovely reminder of how Gods love is deeper than the ocean and wider than the sea.
THANK U for taking a pic for me @nashshankar.  U did a great job as a camp com. Kudos!!

Saturday, January 09, 2016

It's a brand new year

Week One Term 1 

This week’s reading is a gentle reminder of how my life as an Educator has been. 
  • To have confidence in God that if we ask anything according to his will, he will hear us. 
  • To serve with love the people around us even the pupils put under our charge. 

Knowing the methodology, the scheme of work, preparing the class or even simply doing up a plan is useless without prayers. All that can go wrong will go wrong. But with prayer and when done out of love, things seems to be easier, lighter and more manageable no matter how difficult it may seem. 

This week seem so long as our engines gear up after the holiday. Minutes seems like hours and hours seems like a week. So much thing to cover so little time we have. However as I take a step back after a week in school and look around me. It ain’t all that bad after all. 

This phrase struck me as I read today’s gospel, "HE must increase and I decrease.” This week started a little rocky as it is my first time being a form teacher and it sure has been fun to have this class with me. I was unsure about how I can cope with them. All I did was to leave it to God and be open to what He will do, making Him the centre of my life these week in all I do. It isn’t my first year with them but it certainly has taken a different role from before. As the days went past, these little ones have taught me so much more than I ever expected. It certainly has taught me that we should put HIM in the centre of our lives, come what may, in all things we do and be amazed at HIS wonderful hand at work. 

Sunday, January 03, 2016

2016 Epiphany

In the blink of an eye, school holidays are over. Students are packing their bags to return back to school. I am so hoping that time could stop or even rewind itself. The eagerness to meet the students yet the readiness reminds me very much of the wise men in today's reading. If I were to be called to meet Christ face to face, I too would be eager to see him but yet I may at the same time feel inadequate. I may somehow feel I am not ready and not prepared enough for Him. Similarly,  I look forward all holiday to see these little ones, but as the hours draws closer, I feel hesitant that I may not be prepared enough to be a form teacher ( for the first time) .
Time really flies...the long awaited Christmas which we prepared for has come and we are in the midst of it.. Before u know it, we would be heading into lent. Epiphany marks the arrival of these 3 wise man and it also marks the revealation of the life of Jesus entering into our lives. It's a time to stock take our lives to see if we have revealed Christ to others. It need not come in the form of standing around n proclaiming on top of our voices. But simply thru our actions, our lives itself... Has it been a reflection of Christ love for the world 🌍. Like the wise men being shown the star, we too are called to be the 🌟 star for all around us.

Pondering on the readings, I left my worries unto God who ultimately knows what's best. I would try my best to be His 🌟 and with all I have, I'll let Him lead me thru this year guiding these flock whom he place in my charge.
Go Be His 🌟

Saturday, November 14, 2015


In today's reading , Jesus emphasises for us to keep in touch constantly with him. To pray to lean on him and not grow weary. This is a reminder for me even when I am happy or sad , to keep God close to me. Subtly, he makes himself known that he is there for me thru the people I meet. The people he puts in my life's journey with me all the way. 

I am so happy that Irene asked me along for this event. It was a fun time to catch up with my old friends and make new friends at the same time. It also reminded me of my Vocation Discernment a few years back on how God called me to follow in the vocation of educating His children. 

Every day during rehearsal and performance, I am relearning and praying for the faith like these sisters, that my faith will grow deeper , to love and serve His people without any conditions or return. 

Tuesday, November 03, 2015

P6 fun fair

This is one of the most fun day where we have fun even in school for the P6 fair.

Friday, October 30, 2015

Long Week Long Day

The week has been a long week for me... and this is a long day for me. I am getting very tired. 

Monday, October 19, 2015

Life's challenges ...

What does this word means to you?
What would you do when you are persecuted or sent to the lions den to be fed to the slaughter?
How much would you trust in this almighty to be by ya side?

Last week , at mass after hearing the gospel reading, this word resonated with me. I reflected on how and what this word means to me.

I sat there and asked God " what do you really mean? What am I going to face? "
God in his sense of humor keeps quiet. But soon , words come pouring out to me.

"Be not afraid
I go before you always
Come follow me
And I will give you rest.
You shall pass through raging waters
In the sea you shall not drown.
You shall walk amidst the burning flame you shall not be harm. "

I cried at the pew coz the uncertainty pains me, the hurt I felt from the past came pouring back. But interestingly, like a comfort from above, filling me with peace, I felt the Lord's presence within me.
And Father Judes homily mention about having trust in His word and God.

Trust simply ain't about just reading the bible, following the commandments but a combination both knowledge and total faith in God that he will see u thru all things.

So my days went pass , not knowing what  come. However a bombshell hit me and left me lost and afraid of the outcome ... problems occur , many finger pointing and blaming which left me disappointed and helpless .  I was very sad felt alone and prayed to him for help.
Still days passed , nothing was resolved . But with each day that pass, I find myself having more courage to face my problems. Guess at times it is not about praying for the problem to disappear but rather the courage to face adversity in life.

I was surprise at the outcome. It was unexpected but it was a good closure.
I am also thankful for the angels that he sent to see me thru , the courage they gave for me dealing with the problems.
As the saying goes ... when God leads u there, he will see u through!

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Wednesday, September 24, 2014


Felix and Elisabeth Leseur

Fill my cup:
Have you felt like you were so hungry and wanted so much to eat something? Drink something. Like fav char kway toew or durian cake
Psalm 16:5 says
LORD, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure.
Let us take a moment be reminded of how the Lord was there in our week filling us up with his love. Leave all worries behind and come to him. Let him fill you.

As bread that is broken :
Brothers and sisters in Christ
I would like you to think about ya love ones...  Those you spend most of your life working hard for.  How have you been a light to your love ones ...? 

Dear lord help us love these people near to our hearts,those you put in our lives. For god you are always so faithful when we were unfaithful. Teach is to be like you as we come to you broken and wounded.

Think about his love:
Matthew 18 parable of the lost sheep:
"If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them wanders away, what will he do? He will leave the ninety-nine others on the hills and go out to search for the one that is lost? And if he finds it, he will rejoice over it "

Let's think about the times we had this week. Times that were trying,  times we were lonely...How was the Lord with you?  They ya colleagues,  family or friends or even the things around us.  brothers and sisters the Lord is calling us back into his love into his arm.. For he satisfies us...  Even in times we strayed away he would go all out to find us.
As we sing this song let the lyrics slowly set into you. Reflect on the words